Why Does My Nose Still Feel Crooked Im So Freaking PALE And Skinny. Please Help? Really Bad Self-confidence...?

Im so freaking PALE and skinny. Please help? Really bad self-confidence...? - why does my nose still feel crooked

In a 15-year-old boy. And no matter how good looking the sun, turn red for a day and then go back to pale. I'm almost as white paper, and even look sick. I can not gain weight or muscle. My wrists seem so small. I'm worse self-esteem and hate how I look. I hate my genes. He can not bear to my crooked nose and drooping eyelids. Im not saying I have all these little problems fixed, but I'm just happy about how I look. I am depressed and do not feel like living it possible for me to ease. Every day I try and grief. Even people say to me: "Why do not some time in the sun" or "How are you so thin? U anorexic or what?".

Some people are poor, but my friends can notsupport. However, I have a different opinion than two, we slip talk as if I was an idiot who tries to fix me for it. Also present is a group of girls who do very well for me and act as if we were friends. Take the bus with me in school, and I like (or) pinch, because it always tells me something that lights up my day. I can not stand it when it comes to children, the stop will almost never do. Are over and muscular as hot. And it really hurts, it's something that I can not and never will. You make me so happy, but also so depressed.
I was so depressed that I started to cry all day, then the weather began to love. Is this reasonable? I cry and feel great pressure in the chest and neck, and FePain, but the heat is a bit strange. I realized that this is not normal and I never liked the emotional pain before (yes, I cut the physical pain and sometimes even more). I accuse my ugliness of my problems, but I do not know. I do not take no more! I believe that God cursed with terrible genes in an ugly world.